Friday, December 31, 2021

Of Others
when the sun ceases to be sun
becomes some deepening shadow of others
when it burns coldly indifferent when
cold enters the brittle bones soul of another
it's stumbling aching body fails slips into sweet oblivion
when the searching eye wanders out of sight
never returning home
when the pain unending leaves like
the dying promises of what love forlorn knows
not even memories remain
and when the road abruptly ends and
footprints in sand mud fade
shouts of faint truths sound louder
now demons gather round
drowning sparks of
the last of days applauding
cheering in
their own
demise
JP Pestana
Of Others
12.28.21

 

Wednesday, December 22, 2021

 

Boundless

let the night cry its heart out  
let its' tears fall unheard
they know no earthly bounds   
it is more the slow crawl of old dull roses hanging
in slats of worn fallen garden fence 
splintered in weed and branch and age 
their own piercing thorns helpless 
shrinking skies 
songbirds no longer sing their cheerful little hymns 
no reason to believe anyone will know
dust blows where there were once stars
a longing wind howls in the place of light
there are depressions where there were once hills
an agony of spaces out of place  
let the heart cry out once more
it is soundless and most
unanswerable

JPPestana
Boundless
12.22.2021

Monday, December 20, 2021

S O S

shyly she fades from sight
a pervading gray of seeping loss replaces thought
a string of knotted cloud loudly pronounces itself
out of same cloud crow gull silently emerge fly as one circling lower wings slipping away
no one notices the anything
there is no why 
no reason just 
a memory torn
from the pages
of the same 
old story




JP Pestana
SOS
12.20.2021

Wednesday, December 15, 2021

 

The Farmer
he tills the earth long deep furrows
a farmer standing on the thin horizon pink interrupted
there is something here a new field
of abandoned hearts fertilizer
for the thin barren rows
the seeds of some lost seduction
somewhere someone prays for rain
it comes from nowhere it bleeds
into through everything
drowns out the words
the cries the promise
of lovers racing 
for cover
JPPestana
The Farmer
12.15.2021

Friday, December 3, 2021

Forgotten Things
morning is a forgotten thing
her whispers color river waters
almost waves break in sand
find their tender notes
the river rightly fills with diamonds
shards of escaping flashing light
hills collapse into an unfamiliar warmth
vanish into a place that could never exist
night is a forgotten thing
and everything between
that happens
happens
JPPestana
Forgotten Things
12.3.2021

Sunday, November 28, 2021

 

Galaxy
is this
this collision
of we what matters
the earth shudders
shudders again
stars born burst before our naked eyes
planets resurrect
children that once were
run races to their proxy suns
light betrays them
they wither die in the blow dust
of their own creation
is this
this collision of we
the dark galaxy
islands of feelings
that have no
home
Galaxy
JPPestana
11.28.20

Monday, November 8, 2021

Unclearly
crow slow to follow starling
starling following crow stir him
all these wings confuse suddenly converge
bitterness seeps through
dying leaves another burst
of an untidy breeze
there are too many birds
the sky swirls like so many before
clearly he sees there are
no answers here
crow following
crow
Unclearly
JPPestana
11.8.2021

Thursday, September 9, 2021

The Curiosity


A blue flower grew through a worn fence to see if
I was true to myself.
If I knew what I was. Or,
more importantly, what
I was meant to be.


JP Pestana
9/8/2021

Wednesday, July 28, 2021

The Orange
today I peeled an orange more perfect
than I ever deserved
tasted it with tightly closed eyes
there are angels here someone shouts out
heavens gates are open waiting
in the shimmer light spreads unevenly
deeply in huddled roses
in the blur wretch of pain
a taste of her many small deaths
lingers in the salt
of one choking
burning
tear
JP Pestana
The Orange
7.28.2021

Tuesday, June 15, 2021

Sunday Drive

the sycamore's quiet embrace surprises 
maybe nothing more but the deep shade shadows
limbs over limbs little street close below 
this is nowhere in particular everywhere
a piece of someone's dream many dreams
insects misting to bits of cloud
soft slap of rhythmic flags
a mostly whole sky
from somewhere the solemn march of men
in pressed white shirts proceeds
they sing in Italian sing of weddings love death
point the way to a sun clawing
at a cold and waiting heaven

JPPestana
Sunday Drive
6.15.2021

Tuesday, May 18, 2021

The Red Gate

what does the bullfrog know
when the wind spins so green so vast so certain
in its existence
when it grasps at the edges 
of the secret pond  
its black clouds carelessly skimming
reeds bending to their knees
broken leaves trapped in thick mud
the deep throated frog calls in echoes to me
I look away 
in the distance 
the red gate remains 
as it always 
was

jppestana
The Red Gate
5.18.2021

Sunday, April 25, 2021

 

A Break From Rain

for a fraction
the rain hesitates
before her a splinter of light purifies 
drenches a patch of her comfortable earth
catching her attentions I am no longer
laughing she spins invisible  races away 
from the pursuing 
rays

jppestana
A Break From Rain
4.25.2021

Friday, April 9, 2021

 


Being

today my hand was larger than the sun
my eyes ever closer hidden from it circle the words
closest to you  
somehow in an instant you sing the words 
to every song ever written ever sung
listen to the repetitions of shy skittish birds 
the sudden movement of each leaf before 
the brightening breeze
before 
life 
itself

jppestana
Being 
4.9.2021




Saturday, March 20, 2021

Shunned

out of nowhere
this concentration of us
shun one another too easily
long days progress to nothingness
unrepentant we walk heads bowed through the chill
earliest of springs
ache of tired branches
you say the daffodils aside the thin road are courageous foolish to show themselves now
I don't know daffodils
only the spikes of sunny yellow
piercing the stony silence cowardice
hard ground
of my lost
thoughts

jppestana
Shunned
March 20, 2021

Thursday, January 14, 2021

 

Something Else
on the southernmost edge
of some mostly worn uneven place
of rock sun dust
rivers from the mountains are no more
there are no flowers but there were
an old man sits smokes in his aloneness
the voices in his distance cease to exist
he struggles to be
sees the last pieces of sunsets
swept away from what he was
across the hard dirt road
her summer flowers grow freely
her garden is only hers to see
she asks her own clouds to open
rainwater flows through her fingers everything grows
at her feet a kitten plays in the roses thorns
she believes she sees her beauty for the first time
or her horizon melting deep purples
or maybe just something else

Something Else
JPPestana
1.13.2021