Saturday, February 26, 2022

 Just Notes 

In progress

 

 

New Blood

was there something you 

wished to say 

in this this much later winter

words seem harder to come by

your grayness exceeds the bleakness

of empty streets drained and emptied hearts 

the blank canvas framed gold in the corner 

was once hung over the hearth's

licking warming flames 

it was your likeness in smoke soot ash

or are you are this dead leaf 

that refuses to fall to the 

rough ground

listening near and far 

for the new blood

of an exotic wind

dying down

to nothing


JPPestana

New Blood

3.10.2022



 

whole then broken then blown away

a resting place found only in the calm

if the winds die to nothing

an unmarked end for 

in your shrunken brittle curl 

 The White Bridge

the stream runs crookedly goes unnoticed until

the same long hard rain

 muddy dull water churns and gurgles like some slithering thing

is what it has always been

a shallow flow pushing dead leaves in the end

from muddy banks to a muddy pond

cuts through day and night  twisting

twig and branch and trunk

where does it start where does it end

when then was 



there are few here with you now

are the desperation of 

pain and sorrow

the forgetting

of knowing 

what is gone

is already 

too late

to say

 

 

 

say




Friday, February 25, 2022

He Waits To See the Irony of Rime
 
on shadows blunt edge
raining ice falls relentlessly
thunders down on these leafless
most common oak
over a longer arguing night
he sleeps through restlessly
waits to see the doubtless morning sky affirming clouds
unbinding releasing an immaculate beauty
conceived in the climbing reaching light
she reigns over everything
that no longer exists but wishes did
he wishes to exist in a fraction
of her simple given gifts
her unfathomable rhapsodies
nobly the oak carry the shear weight
majestic tapestries draped thickly thinly crystalline
each and every tree for once sees
through the sun
in his hands
and only by chance
all the riches known
to woman
queen
and
man




JPPestana
He Waits To See the Irony of Rhyme
2.25.22

Thursday, February 24, 2022

 

 The Unintended

to begin

it is an inevitability

that the sun shedding angrily will

kill the green pleasure of 

my brilliant hill

its ghost sun quietly circles below

in a dreamy caressing whiteness of its own

I become an unintended dreamer

ducks suddenly skyrocket from a puddle 

of a pond 

I am caught up in a vicious glare

of my own doing

they curve away drop from me

their furiously beating wings

begin and end in seconds 

from one side of the road

to the other 

they glide

to another pond

no bigger than

the other 

yet

no less

essential

 

 JPPestana

The Unintended

2.25.2022

 

 

 


 


 

 

 


 

 Middletowns


these towns always found in the middle

too many to name or claim as mine 

are they really in the middle I mean

kind of 

sort of 

more-or-less 

closer than not 

not exactly 

don't know 

 don't care

maybe 

I am thankful for always being in 

the middle of somewhere 

where doesn't particularly matter to me

middle-of-the-road 

middle america 

middle class 

middle seat

maybe not middle seat

rarely do I ask if this was a decision to name

based solely on equal distance from one something or place 

to another something or place or was it just simpler to say

we are in the middle of here and there and 

we are a town 

so why not 

middletown




 The Miner

he faces

the daunting wall of 

solid rock

deep veins 

with pick chisel hammer 

and curse

he longingly hums a mother's song

again 

again 

again

a dim lantern flickers 

entices the shadows

sweat pours 

blistered and calloused hands incredibly still bleed

the salt in his eyes clouds burns

a blinding wiped away with

every strike of hope

luck 

word 

and

rhyme



JPPestana

The Miner

2.24.2022






Riverside By the Fire (revised


Riverside By the Fire
off the river
an ever bitter cold
it is always the same
some say the remains of
an unsurrendering winter
impossible to ignore wish or
pray away
standing in a room of worn eyes
nervous chatter mourns the person
the bouquet whispers
its heavenly oath promises they will be again
your eyes wander
you alone wonder where all
the men have gone
what do they know that you don't
are they being held against their will
or just killed off by boredom
work or god
here the women bow longer
to their own losses
their haunting sorrows are their shallow graves
left unattended there are no tearful prayers
no angelic choir cries
of hallelujah
you feel only the eternal cold
seeping bitterly
deep within
their quieted but
ever troubled
hearts
 
JPPestana
Riverside By the Fire




JPPestana

Riverside By the Fire

2.23.2022

Wednesday, February 23, 2022

 

Riverside By the Fire

off the river there is an ever bitter cold 

it is always the same  the remains of

an unrelenting presence an eternal call

you cannot shout down  pray away 

standing in a room of eyes mourning nervous chatter

the ashes are still warm in the nicely figured 

well oiled wood

the bouquet whispers its heavenly oath 

your eyes wander 

you alone wonder where all 

the men have gone 

what do they know that you don't 

are they being held against their will

or just killed off by boredom sport 

work or god 

here the women bow longer 

to their own losses 

their haunting sorrows are their shallow graves 

left unattended there are no tearful prayers  

no angel choir cries 

of hallelujah 

you feel only the outside cold

seeping bitterly 

deep within 

their quieted

but troubled

hearts

JPPestana

Riverside By the Fire

2.23.2022











surely it was there

all along






Monday, February 21, 2022

2.22.22

you are barely a clear day 

yesterday's same light wind 

carries hungry robins to country lawns

they know you from when 

dead trees creekside 

lean into each other

one falls exhausted 

shatters the air

the air smells of old dirt decay

a horse terrified runs

from the spooking screams

of tuesday's naked farm boys 

their flailing arms skinny legs

giving out on a long yard

their winter race won

 in a laughing shivering sky

cursing 

blue with

cold


JPPestana


2.22.22





 

 

The Crush


if only you will agree to lead me 

to the rushing river of

my disbelieving senses

they betray me too often

fail me leave me in rapids gasping

grasping for shadows of you that fall

to the precious lake below 

the 

shadow-

falls

crushing boulder 

to jewel

holding me under in 

wonder of the image 

of things

to come

JPPestana

The Crush

2.21.2022

 

 





 


 





 

 


 

Saturday, February 19, 2022

 

Where Now
 
before if ever the return
there is the leaving
the backward glances
clamoring doubt of
 
what should have been 
the steady drumbeat
what could could not possibly be 
 
a heart emptied in the churning burn
 
a voice strained to the point of breaking 
 
broken then innocence broken
 
the startling hard knock on
the hollow door 
 of these
placeless
separations
 
 
JPPestana
Where Now
2.19.2022



Thursday, February 17, 2022

 

Sunday Until It Isn't Hungary she is the most pagan of days her newspaper spread out on her prettiest lavender bed is already pummeled beaten back to pulp she has read every line twice she screams at the front page headline those damn hungarians are back at it again! they must be stopped! she howls yells madly like well you know everyone knows hungarians are too damn gregarious! all they want to do is have fun! Isn't there something we can do? he stirs his coffee with his finger 
 
stares at his finger the swirl pokes at the hole 
 
of his donut the other her cries out her louder heart wipes away years pent up wrenching tears for here outside her only window she sees

a coatless girl rocking side to side on a tired swing she following the sunniest of wings of bluebirds returning with her earliest tenderest spring JPPestana Sunday Until It Isn't Hungary 2.16.2022


JPPestana

Sunday Until It Isn't Hungary

2.16.2022









Wednesday, February 16, 2022

The Blackberry Patch it is the garden within the garden that guards the gnawing craving desires locked away in the deepest denials from a faint being that speaks shouts softest in the room of blue windows lavender and lace it goes unheard the ladies with thin delicate fingers rings and bright stones scintillate smile crookedly incompletely in the flaking silver mirrors wield their sterling berry spoons like miniature swords dusted with sugar dark juice and seed a half man with dull half closed eyes is immune outside

in he absently sips his coke and rum a husband on the verge of extinction hums a johnny mercer rocks a hammock like savannah shaded flowers huddle speak easily enough to one another ponder what it all means when women in bridge whisper their hushed such terrible secrets buried in their gothic 
 
lethal garden 
 
 of small talk tea and gin JPPestana The Blackberry Patch 11.16.2022




Monday, February 14, 2022


Some Other Poem
this bareness of space
makes you vaguely undefined uncertain
it stretches out ahead to some sorry version
of eternity
you never a worrier worry now
the roadside sign broken down faded welcomes you with
a grin to the town of Creation
here (or so they claim) was the
birthplace of light
butterflies leaving their sleepy mountain trees pueblos
head north for the border
vacqueros ride under their cloaking wings
their graceful horses race thunder ahead of
the thought of starlight
monarchs stunningly drape the moon all moons
in beauty incomparable
along the way birds chirp their encouragement
you see a chickadee sitting sweetly
on a weakly swaying bough
when distracted by burning skies
floating ash of stars
silent cries
of a dying
night
JPPestana
Some Other Poem
2.14.2022