Whatever

see through these weakened moments 

a hope alive singularly burning barely surviving 

in creaking revolutions of shrinking 

mostly heavens or whatever

heavens of the kind bathed in promises unusual things

I remember holding them close to me

their soft breath more softness

scream then as loud as you feel 

herald the blossoms bright return 

both pale light and pale skies 

the quake of your vastness

and whatever you last told me

whenever I last 

was

JPPestana

Whatever

3.20.2024

 

Forgotten Trees

she with me seizes dreams

religiously reaches for 

our deeper blues

summer's dreaded end remains to be seen

we ride to her mulberries full forgotten trees

low under sun gently rubbing some falling

something in this modest breeze

under these trees purple fingers reach pull

seeds in teeth stick between purple tongues

crickets speak maybe scream their humid riddles

slowly we leave behind the guilt of time

only then her thin row of osage

oranges so green

low hills

dipping into

oblivion

 

2.28.2024

jppestana

Forgotten Trees

Still Light

a robin alone

stands well below the frail oak

stripped bare of bark

fallen branches

it's tortured memories

this cloudless moment

closes itself

from nowhere starling crowd a loud field

and a robin stares still

still alone

in still

light

JPPestana

Still Light

2.23.2024

The Glow

it is here he believes

the hard jagged corners that hold

the coldest of shadows beckon

darkened shapeless things

crumbled steps

ceaseless wind

a smiling man (bearded) walking by on large hands greets

his cheer lingers inspires

from nowhere a gliding choir of crow surround glisten

he loses himself in their precious invitations

then unseen kicks over a bucket of discarded words

harmlessly he races away

chasing them

crying out

in his

dis-

believing

glow

The Glow

jppestana

2.8.24

 

What Passes For Eternity

you who know

you alone in your own thoughts 

should know again

I was with you all along

when blossoms rained down

turning a clouded earth to cherry

when we in tears that never dried 

hugged our sorrows until their begging surrender

when we sipped our thirst away from cupped hands

kissed in the dancing pool

of a lost spring 

and you splashed at me crazily

shouting out what pain remained

watching it drain away in 

the last rays of a sun 

struggling alone 

in its own un-

known 

 

No Regret

is this long repeating talk of robins in dogwood enough

he thinks the sound of it is more than enough to echo

into the hollow of his soul it is more than sweet enough

to end this very moment

reasonless the wind saws away in pine taller than the sun

it is caught up in long branches torn

in the back and forth of sawdust clouds

it blinds one eye

you still see it for everything it is

it celebrates his sightlessness like some drunken actor

singing an ancient Irish song

in a dark and

vacant hall

and more than morning robins calling to each other

more than the hollow persistent drum inside of him

more than the word of her that lingers like

a combing breeze in long fields of lavender

when every sound somehow becomes one

he retreats to his pleasing emptiness

with little more than

no regret

JPPestana

No Regret

May 31, 2023

 Did She

did she say all blossoms are songs
each one written then so easily erased in a mist
languishing without reason
she stayed with me when the last fell darkly pink
from the oldest tree
a spring abandoned in a clamor of sameness
a chorus of tears
was their more or less of her before I became this
I don't remember if I am now
or when
if ever

JPPestana
Did She
16 April 2023